Tuesday's Random Thoughts

It's been another one of those *thoughtful* days that have me jumping from one random thought to the next - this time, though, they're laced with happiness and sunshine to match the GORGEOUS day! The weather is perfect, the sun is shining, and the sky is a beautiful baby blue complete with big puffy white clouds I like to call "mashed potato clouds". Speaking of which, I've always wanted to get a life-sized spoon, pour some butter over them and just dig right in. It's even more tempting when I'm flying somewhere during the day. The clouds are much bigger and seem to be at arm's length. Sometimes there's a blanket of clouds in the purest shade of white right below the plane, and in that case, I like to imagine myself falling into it, as if it would hold me there. Being up there, surrounded by the beautiful clouds and deep blue sky, makes me feel closer to God. A lot of times, I'll just stare out of the tiny little window in awe, taking in God's wonderful creation. I can't help but think "WOW, what a wonderful world created by an awesome God, and I know Him! I know my Creator, and He made all of this just for me in hopes that I would reciprocate that love and choose to make Him the center of my world". Sometimes we forget to thank Him for the little things - er, big things (the big blue sky, the puffy white clouds, the flowers that tell us which season is coming next, the night sky sprinkled with tiny twinkling lights and a big night light whose bulb will never burn out - These are the little things that we oftentimes forget to thank Him for. Take a few minutes out of your day to give God thanks for the many things He has done for you and for everyone!

Psalm 92:1-4

1.It is a good thing to give thanks unto the LORD,

and to sing praises unto thy name, O most High:

2.To shew forth thy lovingkindness in the morning,

and thy faithfulness every night,

3.Upon an instrument of ten strings, and upon the psaltery;

upon the harp with a solemn sound.

4.For thou, Lord, hast made me glad through thy work:

I will triumph in the works of thy hands.

Spiders, bugs, and bees...oh my!!

Anyone who knows me, knows how terrified I am of spiders. I hate bugs in general, but spiders definitely make it to the top of the  "Things that scare me close to death" list. I've had a couple of instances where bugs appeared in my car during a ride somewhere, but none I couldn't handle on my own with a quick swat or rolling the windows down to get it out. Only once have I ever had an encounter with one of those ugly 8-legged little terrors, though. That time, it was in a conspicuous place and my best friend had seen it so we were able to kill it right away. This time, however, I was by myself and didn't have anything within reach that i could grab to kill it with...OR a flashlight to see where it went, which could have drastically helped the situation!

At 1:00 a.m. (This morning), I was on the drive back home after spending some time with two of my girlfriends. I had the heater on and turned up my relaxing, melodic instrumental music to help me wind down after a fun-filled evening. I was about a mile away from home, when all of a sudden, while passing under a streetlight, I caught a glimpse of a black spider crawling across the dashboard in front of me. Instantly, I turned on the overhead light in my car and looked wildly around for something to smash it with as I was starting to panic with each passing second. I looked back at the spot where I had seen the spider just two seconds before, but it had disappeared! I mumbled "you've got to be kidding me" out loud, which I normally do in situations like these, and swiftly surveyed the area I last saw it. I kept envisioning it crawling under the cavity where i had my feet on the pedals, and getting on my legs or just getting ON me, period! I couldn't get out of the car fast enough. I called my mom, who woke my sister up (poor things, they were both so mad at me) who came to my rescue because I absolutely refused to get back in the car. I felt bad...I can force myself to do most things even when I'm very scared...but facing a spider, or knowing that it's creeping around in my car just gives me the heebie-jeebies! I cleaned my car out today and looked in every crevice and cranny i could find, but never found the spider :( We'll see if he decides to show himself again tonight *Shiver*

Oh, the Joy That Fills My Bowl

I started off the morning right by eating a bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. DELICIOUS! I never get up early enough to eat, so it was nice. I meant to take a small nap after work but ended up sleeping til 12 a.m (That's the best part about being young and single)...BUT, it was not fun at all laying in bed for 4 hours tossing and turning, trying my hardest to fall back to sleep. I finally went back to sleep at 4 a.m, and just as I fell into yet another deep sleep, my alarm went off..sheesh! I will never do that again. I've been trying to catch up on my sleep since Saturday, when a few friends and I decided to take a day trip to Casa de Fruta and Monterey beach. It would have been nice if it hadn't been freezing cold and rainy all day! That had to have been the worst time for spontaneity ever. Not only was the weather bad, it got worse when we decided to head home (around 9:45 p.m) The wind and rain was so bad that I could hardly keep my little scion on the road! We were down to 45 mph at certain points during the drive. Pacheco pass was especially treacherous with the steep grades and such. We all agreed not to get too adventurous until the weather calms down again ;) 

It's a great monday!

I'M LOVING THIS WEATHER! I woke up this morning to the beautiful sound of rain rhythmically tapping on our skylight and all I wanted to do was pull the covers over my head and go right back to sleep. These are the days that make me want to put the tea kettle on the stove, grab a Mary Higgin's Clark novel and curl up with a big fat warm blanket in front of the fireplace. But no, instead I have to go to the Asylum for little people to watch other people's kids! (That was a joke, btw..they are perfectly lovable little ones:) Ah well, It's been a great monday so far! I hope it rains the whole week...

In other news, I am super excited about my upcoming move. I had originally planned to move by the second week of this month, but God's plan was slightly different! With my grandmother's passing and funds being low, I had to plan for a later time this year. I am okay with it since it gives me more time with my family and even more time to prepare myself for being on my own. I don't think my mind has fully grasped everything just yet so a few more months here won't hurt me. The woman I'll be living with from the church there just asked me last night what color I wanted my room painted. First, I was going to just say white..but after I started thinking about it, I realized that there are a billion shades of "white" when it comes to paint...and I have my bedroom decor to take into consideration....so, I'm off to Home Depot after work to find that perfect shade of white *rolls her eyes* wish me luck! I am THE worst when it comes to making decisions about colors...

Y2010 ~ Reflections

The depth of what I'm about to share with you may be due to the stressfulness of this past week, or it may be brought on by something I can't quite describe.

As I reflect on the events of year 2010 (particularly the last few months) leading into the start of year 2011, I am burdened with a heavy heart. There have been more deaths - tragedies, to be specific - than I can count on both hands (primarily in the Apostolic movement). For some reason, I have not been able to bring myself out of deep thought on these things. I guess it has to do with the fact that I am very sensitive to these types of things, and whether I know the person or not, my heart aches for their family and the terrible loss they have suffered.

Recently, my grandmother passed away (RIP Nanny!!). I'd never experienced the loss of a loved one until now. It was hard losing her, but she had lived a full life and was going home to see Jesus, so in that our family found peace. Just the sadness and emptiness that I felt in the days after she had passed was hard enough - I can't fathom the pain that I would feel if I had lost any member of my family through tragedy. I know that God gives us peace that passeth all understanding - I have experienced that with my grandmother's death, but we, with our human emotions, still feel the loss for some time after that person is no longer in our lives. It's that little thing called "grieving" where only God and time can heal our wounds.

Back to 2010-2011 reflections - It seems as though the sad reports are coming in more frequently rather than letting up as I'd hoped. For me, 2011 has definitely been the year of death and major changes. I consider myself a very positive person who tries to make the best of bad situations..so I still hope from day to day that the sad events of fall and winter will fade away and make way for some happy things to come with the spring flowers and summer sun! (: My heart could use a happy zap *sigh*

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Dear Guest,

Welcome to my blog! After debating for months whether to start one or not, here I am. I never thought that my life would be interesting enough to be displayed on a personalized space for all to see, but then I realized that although it is primarily public, writing about the miscellaneous happenings throughout my days can be somewhat theraputic. So, I like to look at it as my non-private journal (without the sloppy penmanship) (:

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