So I haven't blogged since 2011..wow! A few of my friends have recently started one, and it inspired me to start it up again, so here I am. *claps*
It's amazing how much can happen in a year, and the year of 2012 was RIDICULOUS! Filled with so many things both happy and sad. I've felt certain emotions on levels I never thought possible. Through the happy times and tragedies, I've learned the hard lesson of having to forgive when the other person did not, and cannot ask for it. It is the ultimate freedom though, I assure you. I'll tell you something - with everything I've gone through this past year, I have learned SO MUCH. I've been mentally and spiritually bruised and beaten, but I'm still standing. I have struggled but I'm now armed with the determination to push through whatever the devil throws in my path, and still serve God because He's been faithful to me through it all. It feels great!
The death of my grandpa was a huge turning point in my life. It was sudden, it was a tragedy, and it rocked our family's little peaceful world. I can safely say it's been the hardest experience in my life thus far. My grandpa was everything to me - someone I could always count on to be there through the ups and downs of life. I viewed him as a rock that I could lean on any time I needed. I imagined him at my future wedding, beaming proudly in the front row. I imagined him at the birth of my first child, overcome with joy as another great grandchild was brought into the world. When he passed away and it hit me that he would be absent in all of those occasions, I was crushed and angry. The sorrow I felt was overwhelming, but somehow God helped me through it. As a family, we still struggle with anger and sadness, but together, we make it through. People, suicide is not the answer! It is a very selfish thing. If you're struggling, talk to someone. Tell somebody, because there IS hope. It may seem like the end of your world, but it's not! Life is beautiful. It's filled with ups and downs, but embrace it and let the downs of life empower you and teach you the lessons they're meant to. (: Love life! <3
